I don't know what to say. Things are falling apart. I don't know what I am doing right now. Everything doesn't feel right. In fact, everything just don't fall in the correct place. I feel that I don't have anybody to be with me, to stand by me right now. It just seem too blurry. Job, school matters, upcoming new job and the uncertainties that whether I can get a place in that job. I just need motivation, that's all. It seems that everyone doesn't understand. All they can give is just comforting words which I find it cold. & him..... well, he seems fine though. He will be fine I guess. Listening to his voice just makes my heart skips a beat but knowing that you are getting to know someone is another thing. It's kinda true that one of my friends used to said, why didn't I make the first move, tell him what I feel. I did talked to him but, it didn't seem as great as how he talks to that girl.Truth is, I know what I want but does he k