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Salam Everyone and Ramadhan Kareem. Another year of Ramdhan and Syawwal at my MIL's place. Seriously, we are really wanting to move on with our lives but HDB paperwork is crazy. A and I applied last August's Sales of Balance Flat (SBF) at Tampines and we got rejected out-rightly. The letter said that we didn't even get a chance of ballot number. We then decided to get resale flat and applied for House Loan Eligibility. Those paper works too get into my nerves when I had to submit documentations and statements of why my CPF contribution and the payslip is not tally, why is there extra income and so on. We applied in February and only in March, we resolved the situation. I remembered that I was super sick, went to the doctor and then to HDB branch office at Tampines Hub, waited 2 hours plus and they skipped my number because of lunch time (I came at 11.15am, still not lunch time and only 1 or 2 officers under HDB, the rest are all under different office) We receive...

Bismilllah. "Dalam Allah tidak memberi, itu adalah pemberian" I have gathered much courage to share with all of you that this is my Infertility Journey . I am quite denial up till yesterday during my check-up post surgery and revealing the results from the lab test regarding my polyp growth. Some of medical terms that you need to familiar with. What is Polyp ? Uterine polyps are growths attached to the inner wall of the uterus that extend into the uterine cavity. Overgrowth of cells in the lining of the uterus (endometrium) leads to the formation of uterine polyps, also known as endometrial polyps. These polyps are usually noncancerous (benign), although some can be cancerous or can eventually turn into cancer (precancerous polyps). Here is the picture of my uterus, the day surgery when they removed the polyps. The first line was the thickening of the wall lining. Second line is the opening of the Fallopian Tubes. Third line were the polyps in the uterine li...

Sorry guys for not updating as the title said so. Okay I will explain to one by one. I went for HyFoSy alone because it I chose it after work. My appointment was the last slot on 11 April, which was 3.45pm. I reached on the spot and quickly register myself. Registration took some time and explaining on the things they needed to do, procedures and consent which Ii told them I watched YouTube video to know more and adhere everything. lol. changed to my "operation" gown and had to wait for the patients before me to go. I can't remember how many times I had to pee that time because I was too nervous. The room was quite big and comfy, there's 2 technicians explaining things to me while the doctor was still outside. I saw the apparatus and straight away stoked on it. The procedure was invasive, which was not the best and appealing but both technician and Dr Yeo did a great job for being very careful and less uncomfortable/awkward. The procedure took nearly 30 min...

Bismillah. Today, I would like to share with all of you on my (our) journey of having a baby. After so long I have been contemplating to share with people whether it is too personal or is it good to share with people on the same boat as me. People tend to ask me whether are we practicing family planning, which I would flipped. I AM NOT ON ANY BIRTH CONTROL and we are readily wanting a baby. I have always wanted a big family like mine, close knitted and so fun to have so many siblings around. I have 4 younger brothers and my maternal side consist of 45 cousins altogether age ranges from 10 years older and 15 years younger than me. My cousins are my first best friends since I don't have sisters. I even told my cousins that I want to have kids as soon as possible and maybe have 2 kids before 30. I got married at late 26 and my birthday is in January so I tend to grow older faster. I "planned" that I would have 2 or 3 kinds before 30 because of age factor. We tried...

Hi Assalamualaikum everyone! Term 1 has passed and now I am trying to finish up my work for the whole of Term 1 and moving on to Term 2. Having birthday in January just keeps me in the order manner of school calendar and remind myself to take a break here and there. Being 29, I felt super energetic and hyped up to get things done in my bucket list, which right now I am feeling burnout because of those goals and my work as well.   Things I have done so far:  Applied house and talked to an agent regarding house value in Singapore  Enrolled driving license and waiting for my practical theory test and practical lessons  Enrolled a ladies bookclub + spiritual enhancement  Went to fertility clinic in government hospital and my aunt saw us *yikes*  Enrolled a 2 year degree programme which is starting in July! And yeay we are going for a staycation soon as both A and I are very tired from our work and we just want to relax and have fun. ...

After much reflection, I did hell a lot of things in January. Being 29, I've 1. Applied my Class 3A (auto car license) on 29th Jan 2. Went KKH to get myself checked on 1 Feb 3. Got to know we didn't get through our SBF because out of quota on 2 Feb 4. Working really hard on my Skarves branding and publicity and spamming and beautiful pictures 5. Did Pap Smear for the first time and the result is that I do not have Cervix cancer But really, January is the most hectic time of my life and as an admin in school. Most of the time, I am tired from work and can't do much after work. Right now I am pushing myself till the edge of my limit, I started to feel the burn out coming soon. I need to buy new phone or camera to do my vlogs soon. Really have a lot of things in my mind right now.

I am not trying to make a big deal out of it since I got this video from A like 3 - 4 months before my birthday. hahah Yes! Birthday is not special coz everyone apparently has their birthday and to celebrate them *calls the haram police* IS HARAM. Okay too dramatic. I've watched one of the videos regarding Paganism of Birthday celebrations is that we are very vulnarable on our borthday because all the satan, evil spirits would want to get to you , so they have some offerings and lighting candles to ward away the evil spirits and satan. *but it didnt make sense coz satan is from fire, why would he felt that candles would burn them?* ENOUGH of that. I just want to have some fun (but with who?) coz A always had and having his reservist for 2 weeks (this coming is 3 weeks) during my birthday week. Paling best, he had to stay in and can't make it on my birthday. He didn't even make a big deal of my birthday because, like the video on top says: "Everyone has their o...