31.5 and I am today years old

 بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

2020 has been a crazy roller coaster for everyone. End of 2019, everyone cheered for the new decade and then Covid-19 slammed in mid January from China. All hopes and dreams were crushed especially those who are graduating from diploma and universities, whether dream jobs, internship sign ups or grad trip. Economy is looming, many were retrenched and some companies could not sustain and collapsed.

But in such distressed moments, many good things that emerged from Covid-19 that we could learn. 

1. Earth is healing itself. having the whole world to be shut and stand still brought down CO2 emission from all over the world. And ozone hole was shut but scientists were saying it was not related to Covid and lesser pollution.
2. People are more empathetic during these terrible times and helping one another even they don't have enough. There's so many donation and charity work going on. Nak sedekah just with the tip of our fingers je.
3. Our frontliners are the best! Helping us non-stop to take care of Covid patients locally and imported patients.
4. Black Live Matters protests were soaring in the US, in protest of police brutality and violence. In Singapore, we also educate ourselves with abolishing micro-aggression and stereotypical comments on brown people (minority) 
5. President Halimah Yacob herself slamming and asked for sincere apologies from misogynists remarks made by OKLETSGO podcasters whom initially said that this was a “..coordinated attack..". Mufti too said along the line and many others.
6. US getting really bad with Covid when their president being ignorant and not putting people first, no proper lockdown, asking people to work, protestors came out without masks, protestors of pro-freedom said they have freedom of not wearing a mask and behaving whatever they want without protecting themselves from Covid. 
7. Seeing the different side of people during Covid, virtually or face-to-face. Many has become keyboard warriors because they are bored at home with nothing to do, some left nasty comments to our migrant workers while other picking a fight between each other.

I have made a mistake and apologize for my blunder of commenting unnecessarily over petty issues. I really have to learn to control my emotions and my speech. When I feel like I want my voice to be heard, at times it could came out as harsh and hurtful towards others who are reading it. I guess with circuit breaker, it did enhance that inner thoughts and slamming those keyboards. I couldn't meet my parents as much as before, I needed to channel my emotions and thoughts which I couldn't because A was already started to work daily and I am on "wfh". I also was separated from my kakis at work and now alone in the big room. FYI, I am an extrovert, I feel the need to socialise and heard. But I took a step back when I realise my mistake and did more readings on emphaty, about social skills and more. With that, I am sorry and I will be mindful of what I write in the future. Refraining from commenting everything I see in the split moment and sit down, reflect and think of what are the things that could be improved.